I’m still in a bit of shock. Granted, I’m reeling from a couple of different things at the moment, but I’m going to focus on the amazingly positive things for now. The negatives are things I’m not feeling like discussing. Later, perhaps.
I’ve been working on getting comfortable again with leaving the Sanctum. I’ve managed to be successful recently going out on my own (though I still bring my weapons, the only time I don’t is when I am with Apathy) and staying out, walking about and not going back home right away.
So, I’d gone out a day or so ago and ran into Band. I’d been wanting to talk to her for a while, since she’d given me a get-well-card, to thank her. We began talking and she ended up confiding in me. Poor girl was upset. It was obvious. I’ve always liked her and seeing her unhappy just didn’t sit well with me. Apathy’d mentioned this earlier as well and I knew he’d talked to her. Just wasn’t quite sure what it had been about until I’d managed to see it for myself when I’d gone to talk to Atlas about the boots I’d made for Apathy…
I did the only thing I could do. I talked to her. I tried to help her as much as I could, but I’m no expert on love. I’m the textbook definition of oblivious. I tried to give her examples, explain that I thought that Atlas was probably a lot like I was, oblivious to the fact that she liked him, but was most likely just as preoccupied with her as she was with him. That she needed to let him know how she felt. That was the only way, I could think of, that she could be happy–they both could be happy. And by the time the conversation was half-way over, I realized–I was happy and I wanted her to be happy as well.
Nobody will believe it of me, I’m sure. But it’s true.
I think I’m lucky. Very, very lucky this time, that it turned out that I was right. I was right and telling her to talk to him worked. Later that day, I was in the Administrative Lounge on 09, talking to Tailor (having convinced myself that I was doing just fine and didn’t need to go home just yet) and she ran in and hugged me. ME.
Band hugged me!
I’m still a bit in shock over it. And amazingly happy.
Have I really changed that much? I think this is a good thing. I just hope I’ve actually managed to make a friend out of Band. It’s… possible, isn’t it?